I laid in the post-op room after an emergency c-section with my first born son, Kavin. I knew I was a Christian, but my faith rattled. Natural birth plans tossed aside when his head crowned, but wouldn’t push through—and then doctors raced him out of the operating room for assessment.
They took my baby away.
Empty-armed I waited.
Some guy in a white coat stood about five feet from the foot of my roll-away bed and said, “Your baby is sick. He has a hole in his diaphragm. We need to take him to another hospital. The doctor will be here to tell you more later.” He walked away. I laid there.
Alone. Empty-armed. Empty-hearted.
God? Are you still real?
Jesus? I can’t imagine your goodness.
I don’t want to follow you. No, you can’t be real. If you were real, babies—my baby—wouldn’t suffer.
We all face a moment when we must decide:
- Who is this God Christians worship?
- Is He real? How can I know him?
- If I trust him, what happens then?
My Crisis of Faith
For a few moments I thought this Christianity thing was hogwash. But the decision still presented. Would I follow Jesus, even in this horrible, wretched situation—or would I do things on my own? Go my own way? Faith requires a choice. I chose Jesus and that made all the difference. But first—
I had to preach the Gospel to myself.
No matter how long I’m a Christian, I lose grasp of the goodness of the grace of God, His gospel. So whether this is your first time, or you are ready for a reminder, here is the beautiful good news!
- Who is God? Creator of all things. Genesis 1:1.
- God Created You. God knit us together in our mother’s womb and we are wonderfully made. Psalm 139.
- God Is Holy. That means He never makes a mistake and is perfect. Psalm 145:17.
- We Are Not Holy. All of us do things that are against God’s law of what is good. Romans 3:23.
- Our Sin Separates Us From God. Isaiah 59:2.
- If We Remain Apart From God, It Will Be Forever. Romans 6:23; 2 Thessalonians 1:9.
- Jesus is God in the Flesh. John 1:1-13.
- Jesus Paid Our Debt of Sin With His Life. 1 Peter 2:24.
- If We Believe And Turn to Jesus, We Are Saved. Romans 10:9.
- Salvation Means Knowing Jesus Now and Being With God Forever. 1 John 5:11-12; John 17:3
- His Part? Free Gift Through Jesus. Romans 5:8; Romans 6:23
- Our Part? 2 Steps: Romans 10:9
- Confess that Jesus is Lord.
- Believe that God raised Him from the dead.
(NOTE: Some people say a prayer to God to confess their faith in Him. Prayer invites God into your life and is a great way to start your relationship with Him, but prayer itself does not save you. Only Jesus dying on the cross saves you if you believe. But I still encourage you to pray. It is how we connect with God in relationship: through prayer and His Word).
SAMPLE FIRST PRAYER: God, I believe in You. I believe You created the heavens and the earth and that You created me. I believe I am a sinner and make decisions that separate me from You. But, God, I want You in my life. I believe Jesus died on the cross for my sin and raised the third day to defeat death and sin. I trust in Him for His payment of my sin. Please forgive me and enter my life. Please help me know You and follow You. AMEN.
- Grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Peter 3:18. We do this by reading His Word, the Bible, and practicing to follow the truths discovered in the Bible.
- Share Your Decision With Other Believers. Other believers can help you grow and connect in Christian community.
- Get Baptized. This is an outward sign of your inward decision to follow Jesus and it is an act of obedience to God. Kind of like a wedding ceremony, where you publicly pledge your life to God. The act of baptism does not save you. We are saved by grace. But it is demonstrated by Jesus and asked of all believers. It is a symbol of us choosing to turn from our own way of life and live in Jesus Christ. Acts 16:31-33; Mark 16:16.
- Connect in community to a Bible-teaching Church. We all need one another to grow in our relationship with God. Hebrews 10:24-25; Acts 2:46.
What will my life be like now? YOU ARE FORGIVEN! No more guilt, shame, or negative self-judgement. Jesus forgives it all.
You now can live a life of hope. You can now walk with the Creator of the Universe though all the ups and downs in life. His truth will strengthen you. His grace will free you from guilt and shame. You are forgiven! Praise be to the Lord Jesus Christ! He is true, faithful, and loves you very much.
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READ MORE of Kavin’s story here.